It,s been a tough few days.

Hi again from Gill,
It has been a tough few days or is it already a week or so . Again I am in negative mode after our recent break in at home.To awake at 4 am to a sound that your intuition says,is a break in. In the aftermath, it's all about what might have been, with the awareness of how close we were to perhaps being harmed!!We have now done all the usual things,after the event, have installed an alarm system with panic buttons.Bought a safe,& have gone through all the things that we did wrong!!. On our first night away, after the event ,we returned to find that our small front gate had been stolen.For the thief it was just a scrap metal piece of income, but for us it's another problem which has to be rectified. Our alarm system also caused us problems as it was activating at the control room every time we switched on or off!! We couldn't understand why the patrol men came round so often.Hopefully that has now been rectified.
All in all I'm not doing too well at present. We also have an ongoing problem with our neighbours after they erected a huge wall on our property. It was agreed for them to erect a Yoga Studio on our boundary wall, but the final height of 8 meters was never fully appreciated.Their idea of a finishing coat was to, as they said, cement wash it! One can never realize until near the end what that would be like. I now fear that my dear husband is feeling balistic about the whole thing, & I am in a very difficult position.
I would like to add a note of humour, but unfortuneately I can't thing of anything funny about this problem that I could add.
At this time I have bought a new harddrive , but after a few attempt,s still cannot activate my normal email address. I asked for & have been given a new password, but am still rejected when I try to log on. All in all I'm a disappointed little bunny.
Wish I could be as optimistic as my two daughters, who have blogs that I really admire. I must tell myself that I must have done something right when I was bringing them up.
Please excuse the content of this blog, but I have to vent somewhere. Maybe next time I will feel a little better,but thanks for caring.

An enlightening day.

Hi everyone. Today I had a first for me. I went to see a Psychic. I had heard about her from my Yoga teacher,who was impressed with her ability.I am probably a normal sceptic,not ever having had an experience that would rate as out of the ordinary.
As I have said in earlier posts, I am at a crossroads with regard to my emotional health & feelings.Since my Mum died 2 years ago, I have felt that I am in emotional limbo. I could not get my act together or make any decisions about, where to go from here. After years of being a carer of children,husbands, & Mum. I have been in emotional" lock down",preferring to accept the" status quo",rather than to confront a new era in my life.I went, hoping to receive some guidance.
I am happy to report that I felt quite relieved to accept the reading that was given. It was almost spot on!I was a little tense,& not about to give too much information,in case it was all to do with psychological assessment & body language.
I can truly say that what was said was without prompting. What I have been told is very much what I knew inside, but found hard to accept. I am the master of my own destiny & all change is within me.
To my family, I can say that nothing was revealed about my daughter in Nova Scotia, or my son in Adelaide, but I was given information about my two children here in South Africa. Of course that will remain at my discression.
It was an enlightening experience,& left me with plenty to think about.I can only hope that what I learned I can put to good use for my own good.
On a lighter note, autumn is really getting a hold on things here. My pool is covered with leaves & I will spend much time in the next few days & weeks removing them.
Life is what you make it, so they say, or rather how you view it!
Bye for now Gilly.